EMAIL DREAD
who made me this way lol, Sep 10, 2025
I don’t want to be afraid of emails anymore
why am i afraid of getting responses and answers to my questions from my superiors?
It is perfectly normal for me to have email correspondence with my coworkers and ask them questions about anything related to my job.
I’m growing weary of being in unknown situations because I was too afraid to ask for specifics.
I want to build up resistance to these emails and waiting for responses because I’m not in trouble or gonna get fired or be treated poorly for communicating and plus I want to advance my position
and in that case I’ll have to communicate with even more powerful individuals and I don’t want terror to be a part of my emotional vocabulary when it comes to my workplace ya heard?
So what will this look like?
-Not putting my phone on DND after I send an email because I’m afraid of the response
-Having a set of affirmations I can use before I send an email and after that will boost my confidence and build up my resistance to corresponding with higher ups in my company
Affirmations :
⭐️I am allowed to ask questions
⭐️ I am allowed to correspond with my superiors
⭐️No matter the response, I will not be punished or in trouble
⭐️Correspondence and communication strengthens my workplace relationships
⭐️This conversation is low stakes and casual
⭐️I am confident in my ability to communicate more high stakes conversations with grace, understanding, and agency.
⭐️This email is easy to formulate and professional.
⭐️My coworkers enjoy hearing from me and I am easy to assist.
Bye bye email fears!
-c
WELCOME TO YOUR NEW JOB
i'm scared!!, Sep 10, 2025
i start my new position tonight
i'm just shadowing but i'm feeling really nervous because i really want things to go well
this is the highest paid part-time position i've ever had and the other staff are really bad ass
(and lowkey intimidating..)
i shouldn't have looked everyone up on linkedin first..
i know i'm really good at this job and that i'll do well but ofc i can't help from catastrophizing.
before my first training and introduction to the team, i wrote out a list of personal procedures and affirmations.
if i have my own code of intentions to stick by then i can judge my shifts based on how my own set of standards.
i've had a lot of anxiety about needing approval of others to feel okay within myself.
i've been listening a lot to anna howard's wild geese podcast on youtube..she's the reason i'm here on neocities in the first place
i really like the messages she shares esp those related to being unpredictable and breaking arbitrary rules to build up resistance to conformity
i want to bring those ideals into this new position as well as using a more "slow-release" of co-worker bonding and acclimating to the job
i'm someone who feels like they need to be really good at everything right away but this is a company that i want to work at for a really long time so there should be no rush in needing to be perfect or liked straightaway.
of course i'll do my absolute best and be my absolute kindest and dress the absolute best i can
but i don't want to leave this place everyday overthinking my behavior or performance
i want to be secure in the fact that i like myself and i'm living up to my own expectations.
i don't want it to feel like the song i posted...my worst nightmare
my cousin used to ask me to turn this one off because it gave her anxiety
i thought the song was fun but i see what she means now..it's been playing on repeat in my head for the past couple of days
help lol
but i get to choosed how my experience will go and i just really want to take it all in!
wish me luck 💋
-c
calico
just building an aesthetic here don't mind me...